The minister who tended to a mortally wounded police officer at the climax of the Westminster Bridge attack has described how the killing still âhauntsâ him.
Tobias Ellwood was hailed a hero for rushing to the side of fallen constable Keith Palmer after a knife-wielding jihadist stormed the Parliamentary estate last March.
Khalid Masood murdered five people during the rampage, including the 48-year-old officer, whom he stabbed at the Palace of Westminsterâs gates.
A picture of the defence minister â his face mottled with blood â trying to save the dying Pc Palmer was one of the dayâs defining images.
Nearly a year since the attack became a grim overture to a spate of outrages on British soil, the MP said he was plagued by the fear that he could have done more.
He told the Sunday Times: âHe was alive when I arrived on the scene. Thatâs what haunts meâ¦ when I arrived he was alive and there was a pulse and when I left there wasnât.â
âI didnât succeed that day and I have to live with that every day,â he added.
âI still rack my brains about what more we could have done.â
Mr Ellwood had already experienced the tragic consequences of terrorism, having lost his brother, Jon, in the 2002 Bali bombing.
On March 22, the horror unfolded closer to home â just yards from his place of work.
Masood had accelerated through pedestrians on Westminster Bridge before darting to the carriage gates of Parliament, armed with two knives.
Here he encountered PC Palmer â and dealt him a knife wound to the neck and torso.
The killer was then shot dead in a hail of police gunfire.
Mr Ellwood, who is a Conservative MP for Bournemouth East, recalled how he had performed mouth-to-mouth resuscitation on the injured officer.
He said: âI vividly remember the quietness in contrast to the usual busyness, then the helicopter landing, which was really noisy. And then the guys in red turned up â the ones with âdoctorâ on their uniform â a huge relief.
âI expected the helicopter to take him away, but clearly they needed to stabilise him before they could move him. I expected at that point to be told to move away, but I was instead told to continue with compressions.â
He added: âI didnât know when to stop, even when the doctor said he thought we had done everything we could do for him. I said, âYou are going to have to tell me to stop because I am delivering the oxygen to his brainâ. And he looked at me and called the time of death and said, âThank you. We have done all we canâ. And then, as the true professionals they are, they picked up all their things and went to help the people on Westminster Bridge.â
Another victim of the attack that day, Keith Chapman, said he was âliving proofâ the terrorists had not won.
The 62-year-old grandfather from Stevenage, Hertfordshire, had been run down by Masood on the bridge, suffering a snapped vertebrae, broken right arm and smashed left leg.
He told The Sun on Sunday: âThe night before the attack I was discussing with my wife Linda how rough my last year had been with all the people close to me who had died.
âLinda told me things would soon get back to normal and I thought, âYouâre right, things canât get much worseâ. The next day, I get whacked by a terrorist.
âHe hit me at 76mph in a 4×4 and Iâm still alive. Iâm living proof Masood and his hate didnât win.
âMy life has been changed for ever by what he did but I try never to think of one evil man. Instead, I focus on the dozens of brilliant people who helped me.â
Source : BirminghamMail