But it took a hypnotherapy session for singer Connie Fisher to realise her fears of having a baby stemmed from the death of her twin brother.
The Songs of Praise presenter underwent hypnosis to uncover her feelings about becoming a mother – and revealed they were connected to her sibling dying at birth.
Sound of Music singer Connie, 34, admitted she has been baffled why she is scared of having a child of her own.
And it took the hypnotherapy session for her to realise her motherhood fears are linked to the heartbreak of discovering the death of Justin.
Connie, winner of 2006’s “How do you solve a problem like Maria?” talent search, was filmed being hypnotised when she broke down in tears discussing when she learned her brother died.
She admitted she never knew if she wanted to become a mum, but felt like she had to make her mind up because of her age.
Connie – who has been married to husband Jeremy for seven years – said: “I have been wrestling with a personal dilemma – did I want to be a mum?
“Most people seem to instinctively know the answer to this question but I don’t.
“People ask me all the time: ‘When are you thinking of having a baby then?
“When are you going to start a family?’ – I don’t know!
“If you’re not sure you wanted it in the first place it could become a life sentence.”
Connie was making a BBC documentary exploring whether or not she wanted children when she made the revelation.
After the session the actress visits her mother Janet who told her of the heartbreaking moment she learned one of her twins had died while the other survived.
Janet said: “It was a very mixed feeling.
“I had sadness to cope with as well as a joyous bundle.”
But she told Connie: “Fear shouldn’t hold you back from having a family.”
Connie Fisher: Baby Love is on BBC One Wales and iPlayer from Thursday January 18
Source : EXPRESS